一粒石子丢进平静的湖水，水面出现一圈圈的波纹，尽管不情愿，却也越来越大，越传越远。我知道，我体会那种痛。
Sometimes you just want to shut out the world
forget about all the conspiracies
forget all the troubles in the world
ignore the pain
close your eyes
cover your ears
huddle in a corner
and drift off into a sleep where nothing matters anymore. And never be awakened.
自己除外，没有人能伤害我。
I don't want to see the story unfold before my eyes. I want to shout no no no to everything. I can't stand the torture of waiting.
I hate to feel myself cringing and huddling deeply into a small corner of myself in fear while trying to remain a calm front.
Frantically waiting for an answer, but none came.
The silence is deafening. Threatening.
Apprehension. Fear. Panic. Terror.
A tangled knot of assorted feelings.
A whirlpool of thoughts. Unpleasant thoughts.
To put it simply, I'm terrified.
Very very scared..