In His Time
Slides are still black and white. Most stuff are quite settled already. But someone's part still blank. I'm feeling too mixed up (I've no idea how I'm feeling right now; just alirghoervn and no other feelings; in other words, screwed) to do for him anyway. zi shen zi mie. Aiya, whatever. Everything also no mood to do now. :(
Hope today's a better day, though I didn't sleep cos of many many freaking reasons.
I want to run away from everything. I want someone to live this life for me. I need an example. I need a role model. I can't lead; I can only follow. Where are you God? Sometimes, it's just so hard to find you. I know you're helping me and listening to me all this while, but can you give me that feeling of assurance? Please? I'm feeling so small, so insecure, so vulnerable. I do not know what's going on within me. Take that anger, that hatred against the world, that self-destruction feeling away from me; make my feelings of helplessness disappear. PLEASE. I beg of you. :(
--------------------God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way.
He works in ways we cannot see,
He will make a way for me.
He will be my guide,
Hold me closely to His side,
With love and strength for each new day,
He will make a way for me;
He will make a way.
I'll not lose faith in you.
I shall try to stay strong.
Please Lord, give me your strength.