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Sunday, 4 November 2007

真是累了。

If not for God, and those other people around me, I won't be around now. The past few weeks (especially during the release of promos results) were so bad for me, that I really harboured suicidal thoughts as the world came crashing down upon me. And my results were not even part of my concern at that time.
Fear. Apprehension. Anxiety. Panic. Queasiness. Anger. Impatience. Frustrations. Hurt. Helplessness. Lost. Worry. Insecure. Small. Useless. Inferior. The complexity of mixed weird feelings. All gushing in at one moment. Can you feel it all? Can you understand?

I’m trying very hard to hold it back since the start of this entry, but I cannot stand it any longer. I feel really damn fucked up right now. Yes, I just have to use that word.

你知道吗，这也许很幼稚，但我不想独立。

这段日子太可怕、太恐怖了。

我还是个需要父母疼爱的小孩。

....and yet another fiddlestick at 1:46 am

~The Future is filled with Possibilities~