I think this shall be my last post till March. :) February is a short month.
Done up my slides for oral defence already. Yay. *claps*
Econs case study tutorial is still undone. Yay. *claps*
I will learn to appreciate nature during the third period tomorrow. Yay. *claps* (well, I deserve it anyway.)
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I have a choice:
1) try a bit (but there will still be many blanks since I don't understand like 3/4 of the lecture)...
and stand outside the classroom.
OR
2) totally don't do (and save ink - since I'll probably be writing only 1 or 2 lines of crap IF I do)...
and also stand outside the classroom.
OR
3) Copy someone's work (and practise penmanship - like a primary one student-but still don't understand whatever I'm copying)...
and DON'T have to stand outside the classroom (but I'll probably be stoning in class as well).
2 and 3 look equally appealing to me. Oh crap. Something's ringing at the back of my mind.
"Learn up your content. Have the potential to do well." Ok, this was what my 7th Econs tutorial teacher wrote at the back of my test paper (very first test of the year - and duh, I failed). How encouraging. Really, I thank her for her encouragement which motivated me (but only for a week).
Uh, econs is an Extremely Crappy Obviously Naturally Screwed-up subject to me. Well, it can't be helped, can it.
No wait, but I'm not quite prepared to disappoint her.
But I'm freaking tired now.
OH WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING. Debating with myself at 1 am in the morning isn't exactly appealing. Ah, screw it.
I'll see what I can do about it tomorrow morning, eh, or rather this morning-but just not now.
Ok, maybe I shall wake up at 4am to do at least something. Or maybe I can't even wake myself up. We shall see.
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I just realised something.
This is just like how we decide to live our lives -
1) Live life to the fullest; seize every single opportunity to grow.
2) Live every day of life just like every other day.
3) Attempt to live life to the fullest - but without integrity, such that it's nothing other than a nice outer shell.
There are always 3 choices, but we have to choose 1 out of the 2. It doesn't matter whether it's right or wrong - what matters is whether we are ready to face the responsibility that comes with making the choice.