Disgusted.
Hah. I bet nobody ever feel a greater repugnance towards their cca than me. I'm not going to name it here, it's 3 choose 1. You get it. I think it would be pretty obvious at the end of this post.
Call me an idiot, but I really thought that this effing CCA really needs help just to prepare for central judging in late April last year. And so I stayed on, sincerely helping the newer ones so that they can catch up, all the while thinking that I'd carried out an act of philanthropy which is consistent with my values. But then I realised (much later) that I was hell wrong.
Saying that I'm displeased with their system is a mere understatement. The obsequious ways employed by some people to appear seemingly outstanding inevitably make my hair stand on ends. [which is simply the reason why (some particular) earth(lings) sucks so much - you can interpret this as nobody can defy gravity. It's not so offensive this way.]
I suspect that airing my views here would lead to some sort of outcry. But heck, I'm simply stating the facts of my aversion and contempt. Now that the morally debased group has a full strength, it does not need me (us) anymore. This is the kind of effing graciousness received in return. Great.
Thank you (the person on my LHS) for sharing the same sentiments with me all these while. You know how I always maintain my cool while you can't right. But it's really getting too much now and I just had to vent it somewhere. Yea. I'm really glad that no one else in my beloved class is as gullible as me. Or perhaps we're just ingenuous guileless beings that are simply incongruous to that repulsive group (especially that bimbo-tic someone).
Whatever happened is a black swan in my life - so just give me sometime to cool down and I'd be alright.
Please note that I've not mentioned the cca concerned, so stop making wild guesses. If you were destined to know it, you'll know it. And for those who know it, the insulting sentiments shall end here. Full stop. Don't have to go about blowing it up.