A whole lot of 'why?'s
It's now May (duh).
A month plagued with tests and exams (oh no). But of course, it also means that the holidays are coming (yay)!! But it also means that mid-years are drawing near (T_T).
Let's do some counting down.
-Bio Spa tomorrow.
-Maths FA and Chem test sometime this week (I don't know when).
-Econs and Bio test next week.
-Physics EXAM (2 papers) the week after next (omg). And it's on Vesak Day (what?! it's supposed to be a PUBLIC HOLIDAY! o_O")
-GP Exam on 23rd May
-SRP Congress on 24th May (wanna say something but better keep it to myself)
-Chem Spa on 26/27th May
-Physics Practical on 29th May
-Violin Concert on 31st May (Anyone wanna go? :P I've yet to find out the ticket price.)
Oh yay. After this month, there won't be any more practicals for all sciences!! :D Well, at least for the rest of this year.
What a busy month. Just came back from rehearsal. Dead tired now. zzz. Today's rehearsal was actually a make-up for labour day. Subsequent thursdays would be packed. Haiz. First rehearsal today and I only have 3 words to describe it: damn screwed up. The entire ensemble was just so disorganised. Well, can't expect much anyway. No wonder the conductor got so frustrated today. But I really give it to him that he can maintain his patience for the first half. Haha, because given this standard, I think Dr Wong would have blown off her top in the first 5 minutes. I REALLY REALLY MISS NUS HIGH STRING ORCHESTRA!!! T_T
Oh and btw I'm so not going for FFGCC this wednesday. Absolutely not. I'd be making a fool out of myself. I'm a TOTAL noob at using GC please. Initially I thought the school had already signed us up for some external competition or something, only to realise this morning that it's actually only a competition held internally. So I'm like 'What?! Waste my time. I'd rather get my attendance for CCA (which is already bad enough).'
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'You've disappointed me greatly.' That's the worst thing anyone can say to you. It not only shows that you have fall short of the person's expectations of you, it also shows that you have fall short of your own standards, and in other words, you've lost to yourself. How much does that hurt? Very much. This is the first time, and I promise it will be the last.
Mrs Hoe will be with us only for this week and the next. :( I wonder who's taking over. We'll all miss her.
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I finished the whole bottle of cough mixture and I'm still busily coughing away. Since I have no cough mixture to drug me to sleep yesterday night, I began to wonder about lots of irrelevant things. Really. Just all the random things.
Isn't it disturbing that a non-living thing can invade and manipulate with our body system to suit its growth and reproduction, at the expense of making us feel sick and uncomfortable? The virus mechanism is so shrewd. A non-living thing can outsmart a living thing. Wow.
And if virus are non-living things and bacteria are living things, why is it that the newly found nanobacteria are considered non-living things, since they fulfilled all the criteria of living things that viruses don't? Scientists say that it's because their size is too small to be considered a living thing. Is size a significant measure of what's a living thing and what's not? If it were, then who are we to say that we, homosapiens, are of the right size to be considered a living thing?
And suddenly, I thought about Chem. The reaction kinetics question we did in Lecture last time. Since the rate-determining step is the slow step, which occurs before the fast step, the rate of the reaction is the rate at which the slow step is occurring. Time taken for the fast step is assumed to be negligible. But if it's the reverse, i.e. the slow step occurs after the fast step, then we have to include both time taken for the fast and slow step to occur to compute the rate of reaction. The time taken for the fast step cannot be assumed to be negligible in this case. But why? Since the fast step occurs so quickly, it should take about the same time in both cases and this should be the same for the slow step as well. If the fast step is that fast, then it should be treated as negligible in both cases. But it seems like it's not like this. Why?!?! (Tell me if you know why. :D But don't tell me what the teachers tell me: fast step occurs before the slow step, that's why. - this doesn't explain anything.)
Had a random thought about space-time relativity. Uh, like, if space and time are considered boundless and infinite, and since there are no absolutes, everything is somehow related to everything else, how do we exactly define what is 'now'? In infinite space and time, time stretches till eons ago, as well as stretches forward till the end of Earth, what exactly is considered 'now', or the present? Even as I'm typing this, the last comma that you had just seen is already considered the past and it's already history. Hmm, if that's the case, wouldn't 'now' be just a point in space, and our many 'now's are the many points that make up our lifetime?
Well, let me use vectors to explain. For instance, you have this random plane lying in space (and I'm only talking about one plane as an example). So on this plane, you have a dot, representing the present. Within an infinitesimal small time, there would be many more dots on this plane, indicating that the many 'now's are already the past. As you go about living your life, the many dots join up to form a line. A line lying on the plane. Your life is none other than a line on a plane that stretches infinitely. But of course, there are many other lines on the plane as well, and some lines do intersect. They are the people you happen to meet in your life, and somehow, their lives cross with yours. And in this infinite space there are also many other random lying planes, some intersect, and some don't. We don't meet some people because our lines are simply skew, or parallel. You may be amazed that there's someone on the other side of the globe that's so similar to you, or some people 'so near and yet so far' - simply 没有缘分.
And just before I entered dreamland (finally, after 2 hours on bed), I started to think about what's reality and consciousness. What exactly is reality? Is it just the things that we feel, touch and can perceive with our senses? What about intangible stuff? And what happens when we sleep? Why is it that we're unconscious of our surroundings when we sleep, until we're awaken by something else? And things that we see in dreams, they felt so real. We can even feel sad, happy, angry, or whatever else in dreams. And we can touch, hear, see and even taste in dreams. And when we dream, why is it black-and-white in some, and colour in others? And why is it that dreams actually do come true (in reality - sometimes)? Can it be explained? or perhaps it's something divine that is unfathomable.
And also, what is a dream?
And why do people need sleep? Why do people feel tired if they have insufficient sleep? Why is sleeping so important? It sort of just makes us feel like any other 'thing' that needs recharging throughout the night so that we can have enough energy to 'do work' (in the physics sense) in the day. In other words, we're none other than a galvanic cell (or sort of).
Ok fine, I think I'm thinking too much.
Oh, and finally, what's thinking? And why do people think?