Damn with a capital D.
Argh shit. Mid years is a goner.
seriously hope that I won't get back 2 'U's. Chem is like a goner (surprise surprise. I've NEVER failed chem before in my life. oh well. There's always a first time.) and the probability of me passing Econs follows a poisson distribution. So it's a RARE and random event. yea. And it's quite impossible for me to improve by 100% to get a 45 marks E.
I seriously need to meet up with wsm and wsy. soon soon. but not now. to regain my motivation for studying. :((((((
Motivation=0 , drive=0.
entropy<0,
enthalpy >0
therefore free energy aka possibility of studying >0, which is not spontaneous.
Alright I'm crapping but still. :((( I nearly wanted to walk out of the exam hall after the first 45 minutes of chem paper 3. Yea. That BAD. It's the first time I had such a feeling (all hopes are lost and motivation level plunged to negative infinity level) during an exam (except for some wierd evolution exam in year4.).
Whatever. This is going to be worse than CT. Although I was like 5 times more prepared.
Only 2 phrases to describe: 弄巧反拙。力不从心。
Econs is hated.
Bio is abhorred.
Maths is irked.
Chem is loathed.
(sorry i'm in a damn angsty pissy mood now.)
In short, HAIZ.
(yea, one alphabet for each subject.)
MUSIC IS LOVE.
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希望下个星期能过得比较好。小提琴考试和 SPA. 明天上音乐课时还得应付 mock exam. 老师要求那么高，真是快要疯掉了啦。应该开始学会怎么一步一步来应付这些堆积如山的事儿。
哎。世界不完美，生活不美妙。
我现在终于才发现我其实就是这么笨。回太迟一点吧，反应迟钝。