A Crane On Lotus.
It's funny that I could be feeling so high on one day... and low (hitting the sea bed kind of low..) the next.
Emotionally unstable.
Hah.
May the things I do glorify His Name. May His light give me direction and hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.
I just need to get that into my puny little head. That God has a plan for me. That God loves me and will guide me along. That I'm not treading on quicksand alone. That God's hands would pull me up just when I'm nearly suffocating and choking to death. That God will help me shed light as I edge and plough through, little by little, that mountain stack of Econs notes. That he'll quell my panic, patch up my inadequacies, overcome my fear, and give me a solid ground to thread on in times of uncertainty. That He'll help me with the oh-so-terrifying A levels just a freaking EIGHT weeks away.
Why do I always get that kind of feelings when doing any single damn thing related to Econs?!?!?! Why? WHYYY??!!
A word that starts with E. So easy to spell, but so difficult to put into practice. A word that ends with E.
忍
就是因为只有忍，才能在心如刀割的关键时刻，
即使情况有多阴惨，
还能在心中怀着那一点小希望。
希望梦想能成真的那一天。
忍。
在锋利的刀旁，端端正正，不偏不倚的那一小点，
寄托着对生命的欲望。
坚持地忍耐下去吧。
ENDURE
With each letter, a meaning.
Embark on the journey right now,
Never ceasing to make efforts count.
Don't lose the way to a road of null,
Under the stifling stress, nothing but dull.
Resolutions lost but again found,
Endure, for that's the only way to make them sound.
还有...
‘加油’ -- 这词我已听腻了。
对我来说，已经没效了， 反而听了更有反感。
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Something else:
Anyway, I was slightly elevated and amused after opening my house mailbox.
First thing I saw lying on the pile of envelopes/times magazine/ adverts was this long and narrow brown envelope that was addressed to me, and there was this white label pasted on the envelope, which read:
''Dear Mr Postman,
This is a birthday gift to my friend.
Please don't crush or flatten it.
Many thanks.
From: Sender''
And I couldn't stop laughing for the next 10 minutes. 'Cause it was just so.... (couldn't think of an adjective)... naive kind of cute. :)
And actually even before I read that label, I already knew who was the sender because of the characteristic brown envelope. :D
And this is what it's all about:
A Crane on Lotus. :D (and a keychain...none of which were crushed. heh.)
Deeper meaning:
That I may soar on the wings of love, hope, peace and laughter.
That my dreams and passion would take flight.
That God would set and light up the path for me.
That He'll see to it that my journey is a safe one.
And a poem. :D A touching, inspirational poem that spoke to me more deeply than last year's.
To the 'Sender':
Thank you so much.
You brightened up my day.
You brought back memories of the delightful times we had in the past.
You encouraged me so much.
Your words shed light like none others ever had.
Through my darkest moments, you were somehow there for me.
Not physically, but your presence could be felt.
Through sms-es, phone calls, and such.
You're God's greatest gift to me, amigo.
And to you too, all the best for your final module exams this semester, and may the path be smooth for you as you undertake your internship.
God is with you, through thick and thin, through the ups and downs.
Carpe Diem! :)
Oh.. and it took me ONE year to figure out that the starting alphabets of the poem last year was actually 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU'. (argh I'm so slow....) I only noticed it like one hour ago, as I took it out to read it once more, for the seventh time (yea... 6th time I'm emo-ing...), before I received your mail this year from my mailbox.
Yes, I shall and I will be that Crane on the Lotus.
Slowly and Carefully,
with His grace,
one by one,
let it go, let it go.
Let them all go...
and with new-found
strength and hope,
move forward.