A day of mixed feelings
Haiz don't know to :) or :'(.
:) because I got national 2nd for stats competition 2008 and was congratulated by quite a few people (mainly teachers). Hah. I feel loved once again. :D Hello Department of Statistics you're one of my top choices. :P
(Oh by the way.. I can invite friends/ family members to go for the prize-giving ceremony on 3rd sept. Need to reply the organisation by 27th aug though.. for their logistics purposes. Anyone interested? sms me. :P thx in advance. haha.) Sigh. though I think no one would go in the end.. it's in the midst of pathetic prelims (argh) and (oops) my parents didn't even know I took part in this cos they discouraged me from doing so. Heh. I'm supposed to 'concentrate in preparing for A levels'. Ya, right.
:) because I got Bronze for SMO open category. (Amazing right. lol. That's call 'by luck'. and apparently, I improved by 900% from last year, according to Mr Lim. Hahaha.)
:) because I got a decent-enough grade for Physics A levels. Not good enough for me to jump for joy, but not lousy enough for me to shed tears either. Heh. Just right to get into School of Engineering in NTU. :D (It's really amazing that I could actually do better for AP, which is actually uni first year standard?!?!?!)
:) because I have caring friends. :D THANK YOU SO MUCH EIRENE omg.. I don't know how to survive these 2 wks without your constant sms-es. Heh. and THANK YOU PANG SIMING!!!! For scanning over so so so many stuffs!! (I think you took 3 hours to do all that right?) Really really really appreciate that!!! I really owe it to you guys!! :D
:) because I finally passed a GP assignment this year (although this is just a pathetic essay outline). Lol. Morale booster for Prelims. heh.
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:'( because I still cannot understand econs and is doomed to *ahem*. (argh!! It's the freaking PRELIMS, dude.) arh well, just have to try after prelims for the A's. Would be a miracle if I passed.
:'( because my gum still hurts, and I get really distracted and feels like sleeping after eating medicine.
:'( because my preparation for prelims is screwed (which brings me to wonder why I'm even here now...) Chem, maths and GP untouched. Bio and econs half-touched (lol. sounds really wrong.)
:'( because I'm having that really bad feeling for prelims.
:'( because prelims is in 55 hours' time. (say yay)
:'( because I'm feeling really lousy now and I don't know where to find that extra ounce of strength and self-confidence.
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Sigh.. what am I supposed to do?!?!
I hope I could still have a happy birthday during my JC life despite all these shit.
(My birthday last year was quite an unhappy one, in the midst of pw wr shit.)
srsly hope I could still be ok by next fri. I need tonnes of blessings. Hah. (as if this can help)
Round and round we go, only to find ourselves back at square one.
Why?
Is life nothing but a running track where we'll pass by the starting point countless times, but still continue anyway.. until we reached the finishing line which is none other than the point from which we started off?