That Final Goodbye
Why is it so hard to bid farewell?
2 years of post-secondary education.... It just HAD to end like this.
老师, 您为什么要这样对我？
我是否犯了什么大罪?
为什么要这样对我？
I had never experienced such a painful farewell with a teacher you'd trusted, respected and looked up to so much (well, at least for the past 2 years).
And to think that I ACTUALLY broke down, in a place called the school, in front of the teacher I'd trusted so much. It's inconceivable. It really is. To think that I had always pride myself by not shedding a single tear in front of a single other person.... well, perhaps other than my brother, in a rather weirdest and most awkward circumstance some time recently, some 40 days ago. Or thereabout.
This thing. It just had to happen. Oh well, at least it had been a trial thorough enough to uncover the real personality behind the other person. Had it not?
And I had learnt a painful but valuable lesson. Anyway, life's about learning right? *forced smile* In future, I'll never ever put my trust completely in another human, other than God.
In any case, the shutters in my heart had rolled down to draw an end to my journey for the past two years in a place called the school.
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That aside,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY EIRENE KOH!!! (=
Have fun on your birthday.
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Phew! Last minute packing hadn't been fun, but well, at least it's all done.
Hmm, other than that...
Charis, thank you for praying for me throughout these period of emotional and spiritual turmoil and unrest. Thank God for the sustenance He had provided me throughout these 40 days of total shit. Thank God for choosing me or my dad to be David to serve Him whole-heartedly, and knocking down the giant Goliath with just a plain mere stone.
I believe that there's more to come. There will be. But I'll be more prepared now, to take everything in God's perfect timing.
In times like this, only God, and Him Alone, would understand and care to wipe my tears all away.